i miss you sososo much it bloody hurts like hell.
and it literally kills me when i think of the fact that you don't even know how i feel about you ; you don't even care!
Like, wtf. here i am, missing you, going crazy day by day while there you are, oblivious to the fact that someone's falling madly in love with you.
The words i use in this post are like, very strong. fierce. but well, i don't give a damnnnnn.
Haiz..
life is so saddistic nowadays. so many peple hate their lives. (inc me, ofc) . right tjy right ? Zzz
cheer up lahs guys . I'll always be here okay ? Heehees <3
visit my fb wal and you'll know how life is fucking me now. like so badly without a condom and without me taking pills. LIKE WHAT THE HELL ONLY WHY AM I DRONING ON ABOUT SAFE SEX. Zzz. i read too much. Zzz. anyway, sent my hp for repair yesterday, luckily Wanyi accompied me . <3
so yea. shitz. i hate my bloody farking life.
goodbye dears. <3
and don't miss me.

Yay !! Finally posted after 4536917698442 decades ^^
Happy eh !
Well, school's kinda alright for me now, they're talking to me again, i'm on quite okay terms with him again, i'm good friends with them again ^^
Except for the occasional wave of loneliness that passes through me sometimes, i'm contented with school ^^
Gosh, i really don't know how to handle matters at heart.
It's like, i don't even know if i like him anot.
After one year, i've alreaddy liked him for one year. It should be love already, isin't it?
But, after the holidays, my feelings seem to have fade. I still feel butterflies whenever he's near, i still feel jealous when he talks to other girls, but the kind of longing for him is no longer so strong. Or should i say, no longer there anymore? i'm really confused now..
Valentines day is in three more weeks or so. Should i confes? But i'm not even sure if i still really like him. And i can also be 100% sure he doesn't like me. Confessing won't do me any good. What should i do .


- B2uty4life
- ThSimplicity
- Kpoplover3


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i don't want to look back, i don't ever want to look back. I tell myself over and over again, but i just can't do it. Even though i tell myself i will forget a guy like you, even though i tell myself i would never look at a guy like you, but again i can't forget you. "


We were never together, but i could seriously swear i loved you with all my heart, and it might not have been too late to confess to you at that time. But, i just didn;t have the courage to do so. All that's left now is only regrets.

Gotten a job . ^^
At least, i hope they'll accept me.
School holidays are like hell on earth.
Waking up, spending the whole miserable day alone.
I feel so lonely at home alone.
The feeling of having the whole house to yourself, waking up yourself, and doing everything yourself is more than i can take already.
I'm trying to divert my thoughts away from reality
Michelle's not going to transfer to NC.
I'm really glad for her, at least she can stop suffering at XMS and schools around Hougang/Sengkang this area.
But that means that i'll be all alone.
I'm already feeling so afraid.

I don't know what's going to happen to me.
I'm really drifting apart from all of them.
I don't know what to do now, everything's so confusing.
And sometimes, i just don't recognise myself anymore.
I know i'm me, but the person staring right back at me in the mirror is s stranger.
I feel so scared, and it's the same for my parents and close friends.
It's like, i know it's them, but somehow or so, i just don't recognise them,
Like their faces are just so different, so like a total stranger.

Wow. Just discovered that lots of people have created new blogs, or changed their URLs .
Ahaha like me, But idon't think anyone knows it yet,
Saddist.
Sometimes, people build up walls not to block out others, but to see who really bothers to break them.
Life is just a bloody mystery. Each day, you wake up, live life your own way, sleep, and just wait for the day you'd die.
Simple as that.
Life doesn't hold any meanings at all.
Zzz. Me and my DA DAO LI .
ow i wish someone would just , truly care. It's like, yea, there's people who care for me, i truly appreaciate that, but , WHEN YOU'RE CRYING, FRIENDS WOULD ASK YOU WHAT HAPPEN , GOOD FRIENDS WOULD ASK YOU IF YOU'RE ALRIGHT , BUT TRUE FRIENDS WOULD TELL YOU EVERYTHINGS' ALREADY SETTLED FOR YOU. Everyone's just friends, or good friends in 1A , till now there's just not a single person i can trust fully. It's like, nobody in the class even knows i have a crush. x]
Yes, that's how life is.





BEHIND THAT SMILE, IS TEARS YOU WOULD NEVER SEE ME CRY .


DON'T CRY BECAUSE IT'S OVER, SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED.



WHEN THE LONELINESS GETS TOO OVERWHELMING, WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ?


THERE'S ALWAYS A LITTLE TRUTH BEHIND EVERY 'JUSTKIDDING' , A LITTLE KNOWLEDGE BEHIND EVERY 'IDON'TKNOW' , A LITTLE EMOTION BEHIND EVERY 'IDON'TCARE' , AND A LITTLE PAIN BEHIND EVERY 'I'M OKAY' .


TRUE FRIENDS ARE THOSE WHO STAY BY YOUR SIDE EVEN IF THE WHOLE WORLD IS AGAINST YOU.



If the day might come when i no longer can continue putting up a strong front, when i no longer can pretend that everything's alright, if ever, the day might come and i fall, would anyone be willing to catch me?
Would anyone be below, ready to support me when i stumble, willing to let me hold onto him/her in the roughest moments of my life, would anyone even think of helping me get through this?
No, i doubt so. I'll have to learn to be independent, to stop depending on friends who might just leave anytime, to stop depending on parents were never there for me.
I have only myself to blame for this mess i landed myself into, and so i can only depend on myself to get through everything, safely. Though i'm not so sure of myself. I can only pray for the best.

TOGETHER
FOREVER.



BECAUSE TONIGHT,
I'M FALLING FOR YOU.




AND ALL I'M FILLED WITH IS REGRETS NOW.




LIES, WHAT WE'RE LIVING FOR.



ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER




IT'S TIME TO LET GO.




I'LL BACK OFF SO YOU CAN LIVE BETTER.




IF YOU HATE ME, YOU'RE THE LOSER, NOT ME.



IT'S ME AGAINST THE WORLD.


THERE'S A BIG HOLE IN MY HEART
ONLY YOU CAN FILL IT UP.



I DON'T KNOW IF YOU FEEL THE WAY I DO.

SLOWLY, I'M FALLING.
NO ONE NOTICED.
I'M HANGING ON,
DANGLING AT THE EDGE.
I SHUT MY EYES
BIT MY LIPS
THIS IS IT
GOODBYE.